I’m drowning in the numbness. It’s pulling me under and I can’t see the surface. It’s easier to pretend I can’t feel. And the longer you pretend, the easier it is to believe. But he wants to save me. Only he can’t. I have to save myself…and I don’t know if I want to.
Rowan Sinclair’s life has been anything but easy. With an alcoholic mother and a sleazy stepfather, it’s been her responsibility to raise her younger siblings. At twenty-one she’s chained to a life she doesn’t want, but sees no other alternative. After all, what would happen to her brother and sister if she were to leave?
Trenton Wentworth sees the pain behind Rowan’s eyes. He wants nothing more than to make it disappear. To hold her. To love her. Except Rowan keeps everyone at a safe distance. But if there’s anyone that can break down the walls she’s built around herself, it’s Trent. So she avoids him at all costs. But Trent isn’t one to be easily evaded. He’s stubborn and determined. He’ll save this girl even if it costs him everything.
Love, lies, and deception.
That’s the name of the game when you’re Tempting Rowan.
My 2 FAVORITE excerpts!!
“So,” I started, nervously fiddling with the buttons on my jacket, “what are you doing here? This isn’t exactly the most glamorous place.” I swirled my finger in the air for emphasis.
“I needed some ferret food,” he shrugged, pushing the cart forward and reaching up to push the brim of the baseball cap out of his eyes.
“Ferret food?” I questioned in disbelief.
“Yeah,” he shrugged. “I have a ferret and he has to eat.”
“Do they even sell ferret food here? And there’s a Pet-Smart right down the road, why wouldn’t you go there?”
“So many questions, Row,” he sighed, grabbing a container of orange juice and heading for the eggs. “Yes, they have ferret food here. I don’t go to Pet-Smart because if I did that, then I’d want to bring home every furry creature I saw while I was there.”
“You seriously have a ferret?” I continued to drill him.
“Yes, I seriously have a ferret. His name is Bartholomew and he’s really cute. You should come over and play with him sometime. He needs friends,” Trent grinned at me. “How are these?” He held up a carton of eggs.
“Those are great,” I answered his question. “You know, I could see you with a snake or a lizard, but not a ferret.”
Trent shuddered. “Don’t tell anyone, because it’ll ruin my street cred, but I hate reptiles. I’m not saying I’m going to go out and kill a snake because I hate them, I’m all for saving any little creature, I just don’t want one living in my house.”
I cracked a smile at that. “You’re an interesting guy, Trenton.”
He gazed down at me, studying my features. I found myself squirming at the intrusive stare. “Why did you stop talking to me, Rowan?”
I brushed past him and grabbed the handle of the shopping cart. I walked as fast as my legs could carry me, but Trent jogged after me.
“Whoa, whoa, whoa,” he reached out, bringing the cart to a halt. “You’re not getting away that easily. You don’t want to answer the question? Fine,” he shrugged like it was no big deal, “but I’m not going anywhere.”
“Of course you’re not,” I grumbled under my breath. Trent would stick around and fester under my skin. He’d find a way into my heart, and when he did I’d have to tell him all my secrets. And when he found out what I had done…he’d hate me, and I wouldn’t blame him.
“I’m a Wentworth,” he bumped me aside with his hip and took over with the shopping cart, “and we’re incredibly stubborn, so get used to it.”
“Believe me, I’m well acquainted with your stubbornness,” I grumbled under my breath.
Trent glanced at me over his shoulder, grinning like the cat that ate the canary. Uh-oh. What had I said? “I like that you’re admitting just how well you know me. This might not be as difficult as I thought.”
“What might not be difficult?” I ground my teeth together. I swear, only Trent seemed to know what buttons to push to piss me off.
“Getting you to see that we’re perfect for each other.”
“Just the two of you?” A waitress appeared beside our table, glaring at Jude. Geez, I couldn’t go anywhere with guy. Had he slept with everyone?
“Yeah, just the two of us,” Jude replied, leaning back in the booth with an easy grin.
She dropped the menus on the table and the plastic made a smacking sound as it hit the table. “What can I get you to drink then?”
“Water,” I answered.
“Same,” Jude replied, smiling at the waitress.
She rolled her eyes and turned sharply on her heel.
“She’s so going to spit in my drink,” I grumbled.
Jude chuckled, pulling off his beanie and running his fingers through his hair. “Nah, she won’t bother you. It’s me that’ll be drinking her spit.”
“Ew,” I wrinkled my nose. “Anyway,” I picked up the menu, “what’s good here?”
“Everything,” he replied.
“That’s real helpful, Jude.”
“Hey, it’s the truth,” he chuckled, scratching his stubbled jaw.
Since I was starving and running out of time before I had to get to work, I ordered a turkey club sandwich. Jude ordered the same and cheese fries for an appetizer.
“Uh…Rowan?” He leaned forward with both his hands on the table, looking at something over my shoulder.
“Yes?” I responded, inspecting my water for any foreign substances.
“Do you have a boyfriend?”
“God no, Jude! You know that! And no, I’m not going to date you!”
“Hey,” he raised his hands in defense, “I know you’re not interested in me, that’s why we’re friends. But that dude over there is glaring at me like he wants to rip my balls from my body.”
“Thanks for that disturbing visual, Jude,” I groaned.
I looked over my shoulder to see who he was talking about, but couldn’t see anything, because the top of the booth blocked my line of sight.
“Did he leave?” I asked.
“Nope,” Jude picked up the wrapper from his straw and began playing with it, “he’s still staring. I think he’s planning to kill me and trying to figure out the best place to hide my body so no one finds me.” He reached across the table and took my hand. “If I don’t make it out of this alive, please tell my mom I love her.”
“Are you sure you’re not studying to be an actor?” I pulled my hand from his grasp.
“Oh, fuck,” Jude paled, sitting up straight, “he’s coming over. I think he’s pissed that I held your hand.”
“Hello, Rowan.” Both words were said through gritted teeth, telling me the person who spoke them was beyond mad.
A shiver danced down my spine as I recognized the voice.
“Hi, Trenton.” I tried to keep my tone light and sound unaffected, even though my whole body was humming with pleasant zings at his close proximity.
“You know this guy?” Jude asked me, his mouth falling open in shock that I might possibly know someone other than him that possessed a penis.
I nodded. There was no way I could deny it, and I didn’t want Trent to cause a scene. Well, an even bigger scene.
“Oh, she knows me better than I’m sure she knows you,” Trent smiled—and there was nothing pleasant about it—as he slid into the booth beside me. “Who are you?”
“You don’t have to say anything,” I warned Jude, taking a sip of water.
Trent glared at me.
Jude swallowed thickly, looking like a deer caught in headlights. “I’m Jude.”
“And are you on a date with my friend here?” Trent tilted his head towards me.
“No-o-o.” Jude’s voice shook. Scaredy-cat. “We’re just grabbing a bite to eat.” Jude was a tough guy, and I found the fact that he was scared of Trent to be hilarious. I’m sure with the way Jude got around he’d run into plenty of jealous boyfriends, and had to fight his way out of a sticky situation, but something about Trent had him shaking in his boots.
“Yeah, and I bet you’re trying to figure out how you’re going to get her to go back to your place, aren’t you? I bet she’s just another conquest to someone like you. I know your type. You’re always looking for an easy fuck. So, I suggest you look elsewhere.”
My eyes widened and my jaw dropped at Trent’s words. I punched his arm as hard as I could, forcing him to acknowledge my presence. I could tell Jude was pissed too, and opened his mouth to say something to Trent, but I didn’t need Jude to fight my battles.
“I can’t believe you just said that to him,” I spat at Trent, keeping my voice hushed so we didn’t disturb the other people in the restaurant.
“Yeah, well,” Trent reached up and ran his fingers nervously through his hair, obviously ashamed of his behavior, “I’m a bit pissed off that you keep wanting to brush me off, but you’re out with this guy. You turned me down for dinner last night, but here you are with him,” he pointed a forceful finger at Jude.
“This guy,” Jude pointed to himself, “has a name, and it’s Jude. J. U. D. E.”
“Do I look like I care?” Trent glared, his nostrils flaring with anger.
“I’m not on a date, so stop being rude to him,” I told Trent. I was tempted to kick him, but since he was beside me, that would’ve been quite difficult.
“Then what are you doing?” Trent looked from me to Jude.
“Why should I tell you? You’re the one that came over here like a dog pissing on its territory,” I seethed.
“Oh, this is good,” Jude chuckled. I turned in his direction to see him shoving cheese fries in his mouth. “Please, continue.”
I ignored Jude and went back to glaring at Trent. I was embarrassed by his behavior and I knew I’d have a lot of explaining to do, because Jude would want to know what was going on between Trent and I. I’d do my best to avoid that conversation for as long as possible. I didn’t want to go into details with Jude about my past with Trenton.
“And you’re the one that acts like you hate me, then I kiss you, and it’s obvious you do want me,” Trent countered, referring to the night after we shopped for groceries. “You can keep denying this as long as you want, but as long as your body continues reacting to me, I’ll keep coming back.”
“You kissed him?” Jude asked, dipping three fries in ranch. Of course, out of all of that the only part Jude noticed included kissing.
“He kissed me,” I argued, glaring daggers at the two guys. “And it hardly was a kiss at all.”
“Whatever you need to tell yourself to feel better,” Trent smirked in my direction. “Can I have some of those?” He asked Jude, pointing to the fries.
“Sure, as long as you promise not to kill me and cut me up into tiny pieces,” Jude shrugged, sliding the plate closer to where Trent and I sat. I guessed they were best friends forever now thanks to the magical bond of cheese fries. “Now, tell me about this kiss,” Jude probed Trent for answers.
“There’s nothing to tell,” I spoke up before Trent could open his big fat mouth.
“It was a simple kiss goodnight,” Trent shrugged, taking a fry as he talked over me.
“You naughty girl, Rowan. I can’t believe you didn’t tell me,” Jude winked.
“Why would I tell you?” I muttered under my breath. “You’re a guy. Besides, it wasn’t worth talking about.”
“Burn,” Jude coughed, eyeing Trent warily in case he decided to jump across the table and strangle him.
“Well, then,” Trenton turned to face me, a challenge glimmering in his blue eyes, “I guess I’ll have to give you something to talk about then.”
In a lightning fast move, he grabbed my face between his large hands and pressed his lips against mine. The kiss was demanding and forceful, but somehow still passionate. It was the kind of combination that left your world spinning. I found my traitorous body responding to the feel of his tongue against my lips. I felt insecure and unsure what to do. I hadn’t been with anyone since Trenton and that had been five years ago, so I was clearly out of practice. I found that my body seemed to know what to do though, despite my lack of knowledge. I grasped his sweatshirt between my fingers, curling the fabric into my fist. His tongue flicked against mine and a soft moan escaped me. My mind had gone completely blank and all I could do was feel. My lips followed his in a passionate dance.
Cold water flicked against my face and I pulled away from Trent. We both wiped our faces and looked in the direction the water had come from. Jude sat there grinning, wiping his hands on a napkin. “Y’all looked like you needed a cold shower. Seeing as how we’re a little low on showers at the moment,” he looked around the restaurant, “I thought this would suffice,” he pointed to his glass of water.
1. Stay the Night-Zedd
2. Hey Brother-Avicii
3. Nitesky-Robot Koch
4. Addicted to You-Avicii
5. Wicked Game-Emika
6. Kill Your Heroes-Awolnation
7. Ticking Bomb-Aloe Blacc
8. Say Something-A Great Big World
9. Afraid-The Neighborhood
10. Still into You-Paramore
11. Heart Attack-Enrique Iglesias
12. Sweater Weather-The Neighbourhood
13. Happiness-The Fray
14. Heaven Knows-The Pretty Reckless
15. Dead in the Water-Ellie Goulding
16. My Blood-Ellie Goulding
17. Love Me Again-John Newman
18. Waiting Game-Banks
19. Don't Be Afraid-Lee DeWyze
20. Open Your Eyes-Lee DeWyze
22. Heavy in your Arms-Florence + the Machine
23. Invincible-All Good Things
24. Where I Come From-Lifehouse
26. Last One You Love-Goldhouse
27. Don't Wake Me-Robots Don't Sleep
28. Sad Song-We the Kings
29. What it Is-Kodaline
30. Drink You Away-Justin Timberlake
31. Do or Die-3OH!3
32. Don't Deserve You-Plumb
✯✯5 HUGE STARS!!!✯✯
I am so in love with this story. I am so in love with Rowan & Trent. This book literally lad me laughing one minute. Then, I'm crying or I have my hand over my mouth in shock. This book had 1st love & then 1st heartbreak. It had a little bit of everything in it. And, I for one. Loved every single thing about 'Tempting Rowan'.
Rowan is completely closed off. She has a mother who hates her. Is always so drunk she's never awake. And, when she is awake she's very unpleasant. Her step-dad has a very serious hand problem. Every time he was around I cringed. Rowan feels broken & empty inside. Unable to be loved. She feels unworthy. Then why stay around? Rowan stays around to take care of her little brother & sister. Who every time they were around you'll have a smile on your face. Rowan vows to graduate college, get a good job, make enough money and take them and run. So, until that happens she keeps everyone at arms length. Including her 2 best friends Tatum & Jude.
Then, Trent comes home from school & throws a wrench in her plans! If you read 'Finding Olivia & Chasing Olivia' then you know how perfect Trace is. Well, Trenton Wentworth is just as perfect as his older brother! He has been in love with Rowan since they were 16. The night they lost their virginity to each other he let her know how he felt. Rowan on the other hand ran & never looked back. Now, Trenton is back and is going to do anything & everything to get her back!!
Every time Rowan turns around there is Trent. He follows her to the food stores, the library where she works. It's driving her insane. Because, when she goes home he invades her mind, her dreams. It's killing her because he is the only person who has ever had her heart. The only person she'd give it too. But, deep down Rowan knows he'll never except everything she has to offer.
Over time Trent finally gets Rowan to agree to go on a date with him. Trent breaks her down and gets Rowan to see that it's OK for her to live. For her to do stuff for herself. Rowan is definitely enjoying her time with Trent. He's there for her when she needs it. I was stoked to see Trace & Olivia there as well.
Then, Rowan's secret comes out. I literally dropped my kindle. It's a big wow moment!! She has some explaining to do. Trent & Rowan must figure out whats next. Even if there is a next.
There's so much going on in this book!! I literally felt for Rowan.There hasn't been a character in awhile that has affected me the way she did. She's such a beautiful, strong woman. Yet, she can't seem to see that. Jude & Tatum (who you'll love) have known her for awhile and even they don't know all her deep dark secrets. I can't stand her mom & step-dad with a passion!!!! Trenton is just as sexy and perfect as his brother.
When I tell you to get a comfy place to sit and read. Get your tissues too because you'll totally going to need it. I can not wait to see what Micalea is writing next!!!
About Micalea Smeltzer~
is an author from Virginia. Her name is pronounced Muh-call-e-uh. She is permanently glued to her computer, where she constantly writes. She has to listen to music when she writes and has a playlist for every book she’s ever started. When she’s not writing, she can be found reading a book or playing with her three dogs.
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