Genre: Erotic/Psychological Thriller
Cover Designer: Cover Me, Darling
Words are funny things. Their meaning, the pictures they paint in the minds of those that hear them: they’re not always the same and to me at least, that makes them meaningless. Take for instance the phrase ‘black widow’. Those words conjure the image of a spider, an eight-legged creature with the red imprint of an hourglass on its abdomen. However, instead of speaking of an arachnid, of the resident of a spindly and dew-laden web, the people who whisper those words are talking about something much different. They’re talking about me. From what I’m told, I’m called the Black Widow because no man I’ve ever loved has survived. Yet, I have no memory of any of it. My new home leads me to the definition of another vague and meaningless word. It’s a place where I’m supposed to seek refuge. A place of retreat and security. It’s a place where I’m supposed to be kept safe because I’m sick. But the definition for this place is wrong and the word becomes meaningless when you’re tucked away and made silent by drugs and pretty white jackets. My name is Alexandra Sutton and this is the story of what happened when I was imprisoned inside an Asylum.
I couldn’t contain my anger. “I didn’t kill anybody! I don’t even know who those men are…” “Do not raise your voice with me, Ms. Sutton. I’ve allowed your quirks in behavior thus far, but I’m growing tired of your insubordination. While under my care you will learn to control your outbursts or else you will be restrained both physically and chemically, if necessary.” “Through drugs, you mean. You’ll dope me up to a point where I can’t fight back.” “If that’s what I must do. Like I’ve said, I don’t prefer that type of restraint, but in certain cases, it can’t be avoided.” Standing from his chair, he rounded the desk to stand in front of me. I craned my neck to look up at him, my muscles tightening painfully with anger and the refusal to believe that I’d done any of the things of which I’d been accused. It wasn’t until he was close enough to touch me that the notes of his cologne wafted beneath my nose – something haunting and exotic, masculine and earthy. I shivered at the smell, looking away from him and grasping my hands together in my lap to the point where my short fingernails dug into my skin. “Look at me, Ms. Sutton.” I did as I was told because there was no point in fighting back. A slow roll of recognition penetrated my thoughts, the abysmal circumstances of this place, the futility and harrowing truth that I was under their control. Any hint of rebellion and I would be dosed into compliance, drooling on myself while nodding my approval of whatever horrible thing they had planned. They stripped you of your strength, your voice, your entire being, and replaced it with the structure implicit to an institution for the insane. “You are my patient and as such, you are under my control and also my protection. I will not hurt you in any way. My only job is to help you. However, any rebellion on your part will be met with equal force. Do you understand?” “Yes sir.” I spit out the words, angry that I was answering to a man I didn’t even know. “That’s a good girl.”
WOW! My mind has been thoroughly fucked and blown! Lily White has done it yet again with another insane and incredible story. She is an artist through and through using her words to paint a remarkable and realistic picture of what you are reading. As with all her other books, I found myself lost in this intense and emotional world where nothing is what it seems. And in true Lily White fashion, she is once again able to take a dark and twisted story and weave in some highly erotic and melt-your-panties scenes which leave you feeling so wrong for being so turned on.
Taking place in a mental institution, you can expect to meet a diverse, intriguing and sometimes scary bunch of characters. And you receive just that. The patients inside the Asylum were completely bat shit crazy, yet you could not help but love them. An intricately woven story with some of the most shocking characters I have met yet, Asylum was a book that I was unable to put down, and really messed with my mind.
Alexandra Sutton has been accused of murdering her lovers, yet she cannot remember a thing from the past few years. Once she finally begins to form a consciousness as to what is happening around her, she realizes that the place she has been put in is not the safe haven it is meant to be for her and others alike. Confused and scared her story begins to unfold for herself as well as the readers and you are left with question after question… what is real and what is a delusion.
When Dr. Jeremy Hutchins enters the institution as the new head psychiatrist, he immediately takes an interest in Alix and her case. He has a new form of therapy which he has developed and he wants to try it out on Alix in hopes of recovering her memories from the painful events which led her inside the walls of the Asylum. With her brother Dain's approval, Dr. Hutchins begins the slow process at hopefully freeing Alix of the demons that may be trapped in her subconscious, and freeing her from inside the walls of her confinement. He is charming, compassionate, and extremely good looking and the chemistry between Alix and Jeremy is so intense at times you can ALMOST forget how they are patient and doctor.
As I read I found myself constantly questioning EVERYTHING in the story. At times it was difficult to decipher what was real and what was a hallucination in Alix's mind, and the twists and turns really keeps your mind working in overdrive trying to figure out exactly what was going on and what was going to happen. Things are not always what they seem... especially behind the walls of The Statham Institution for the Criminally Insane.
Lily White is a dark writer who likes to dabble on the taboo side of eroticism. Most of the time she can be found wandering around aimlessly while her mind is stuck in some twisted power play between two characters in her head. You may recognize her in public by the confused expression, random mumbling, and occasional giggle while thinking up a scene. Lily's favorite things in life are reading, thinking about reading, buying books for reading....and writing. Her other secret pleasure is meeting with her plot editor in public to discuss her books and watching the shocked expressions of the people around her that don't realize she's talking about a book. When Lily is not reading, writing, wandering or freaking out innocent bystanders, she's sleeping.