Kayley Carson thought she had it all...married to the love of her life, a great job, and a baby on the way. Then one day, her life changes forever when she loses her husband in a tragic accident. No longer sure how to navigate life after her enormous loss, Kayley clings to her newborn baby, her family, and her friends to keep herself living. When she meets someone that challenges her belief that she's better off alone, she has to decide if she is capable of letting him in after swearing she was never going to love anyone the same way again. She's not the only one with a painful past. He is struggling with trust issues after a previous relationship went horribly wrong. After a terrible misunderstanding brings out both of their insecurities, will the painful memories of the past keep them both from living again?
I'm not a 100% sure where to start!! Oh, yes I do. Tissues... Make sure you have them because you're going to need them from page 1 all the way to the last page.
We start off with the beautiful Kayley Carson who's pregnant with her 1st child. She doesn't know she's having because her and her husband didn't want to know. They wanted to be surprised. And, they were so beyond thrilled to be having their 1st child. If only it were that easy.
Kayley's world went from being fantastic to everything crumbling down around her. She got the phone call that nobody wants. Her husband Alex was involved in a terrible car accident. After she rushed to the hospital she was told shortly after her husband had passed away.
While she's at the funeral she's a wreck. She can't imagine how she is suppose to love without Alex. Kasey is devastated that her unborn child will never get to meet Alex. She makes a vow to life,breathe her unborn child. And, that includes swearing off love!! Kayley gave a eulogy at Alex's funeral that had me crying hysterical!!!
Shortly after she gave birth to a healthy, beautiful baby girl. Who she called Alexis Kayley Carson. Who she called Lexi for short. The next year was a complete fog for Kayley. Looking at Lexi was like looking at Alex. Kayley cried constantly. Her parents and best friends Emily & Rachel were her rocks. She relied on them for everything. Kayley really, really did have a EXCELLENT support team.
On the year of Alex's death, Kayley decided it was time.... Time to move forward. Kayley & Alexis along with all of her and Alex's family anf friends went to the beach with Alex's ashes and set him free. Kayley also took her wedding & engagement ring off.
On Alexis's 1st birthday, Kayley had the 2nd worst day in her life. Alexis got sick and had to be rushed to the ER. That's when she meets Dr. Ben Nichols. Emily names him Dr. Yummy & that sticks thru the whole story. LOL.. BOTH Ben & Kayley feel an instant connection. But, Kayley is still very much raw. And Ben... Ben's been burned and been burned bad. But, when he looks at Kayley & Alexis none of that matters. When he looks at them he sees home. He feels complete.
After struggling back & forth with feeling guilty. Along with her best friend Emily Kayley decides to jump in. Now I won't go much further simply because this book was long and had a lot in it. It had a lot of ups & downs. Some of the downs you'll scream at your book hoping they'll hear you. I know because I did it a bunch of times. I was literally in love with little Alexis!! Every time I read what she did & said I'd smile. People thought I was crazy because one minute I'm smiling. The next I'm crying.
This is L.L. Collins debut novel. And, I'm honored to be able to read it 1st. It was such a great story, with characters that I really connected with. I gave it 4 stars because I felt some of it was repetitive & a little dragged out. But, other then that EXCELLENT!!! I'm waiting for her next book!!!
L.L. Collins loves spending her days in the Florida sun with her husband and two boys, reading, and writing. LL has been writing since she was old enough to write. Always a story in her head, she finally decided to let the characters out made her lifelong dream of becoming an author come true in the self-publishing world. She's the author of the Living Again Series and the Twisted Series, plus a new standalone, Back to the Drawing Board. Visit LL on her website, www.llcollinsauthor.com and on all social media. Look for more of her emotionally charged novels soon!